Unfailing Love

Do you have someone that tells you how much they love you everyday? Or do you know that someone loves you but they don't express it verbally? The subject of love has really been rolling around in mind for the past few months. I think, like a lot of people, I had started to buy into the Hollywood version of love. The mushy, sentimental feelings that people have towards one another. I have realized just how superficial that image is. Yes, love does contain tender affections and such but its so much more than that. I don't quite know how to explain what I am trying to explain or talk about what I am learning. I guess I could break it down this way:

1) There is an ENORMOUS need in each one of us to be loved and cherished. You can deny it and say that you are fine on your own and that you don't need anyone else, except for yourself; but you would be wrong.

2) God is the ONLY ONE who can fulfill this need in our lives.

You don't know how much I have struggled with doubt over God's love for me. I just don't understand how someone could still find a person even remotely attractive after they have been hurt by them over, and over again. Why would God want to give me my 1,989,567, second chance? How can you love someone so unfaithful?
Lie: God could never love me the way I am
Truth: God isn't human, and His definition of love is far different then mine.

Have you ever had someone do something to you that hurt you so much that you couldn't even think about them without feeling resentment or anger? Or, have you ever done something to someone and every time you see them you cringe at what you've done?
It's not easy for us to love someone who we consider is unlovable. God isn't like that.
I have been reading Breaking Free by Beth Moore and here is what she explains about God's love,

"Beloved, please receive this truth--God cannot be unbiased toward you. He cannot set His love for you aside and make an objective decision. He cannot see you through anything less than a loving Father's eyes. You and I will never be rejected when we come to God with genuine hearts of repentence..." (pg 191 Breaking Free handbook).

Satan enjoys telling us that we are nothing and that God doesn't love us. But that is farthest from the truth! God is love! to say that God doesn't love us is to call Him a liar, and to say He isn't who He is.
I know that I am rambling now but this is something that I have struggled with and I really want to say at least a little bit about it. Maybe later on I can find better words, but all I know is that when we don't accept the truth about God's love for us we become miserable. We live our lives in fear of His wrath and suffer from the loss of His love that is waiting to take us safely into His arms! If there is one thing that you remember from this rambling post I want it to be this: God loves you right now. There is nothing, I repeat nothing, that can take away that love He has for you. He is not like the guy who left you or the parent who doesn't give you the time of day. He LOVES you, always and forever. No ifs, ands, or buts. He just loves you. Start believing it today.

"This then is how we know that we belong to the truth, and how we set our hearts at rest in His presence whenever our hearts condemn us. For God is greater than our hearts, and He knows everything... And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him." 1 John 3:19-20, 4:16

I am going to get it right!

With the way gas prices keep rising I am trying to find ways to tighten our belt. We started out with a budget when we got married but I'm finding it's really hard trying to keep up with it sometimes. I went to the store and bought some accordion folders, a budget organizer, and a notebook. I am going to attempt to put this home under my thumb. Goals I am striving for: 1) Get the hang of the whole coupon thing. 2) Organize my kitchen and look into cooking and freezing meals for a month.  and 3) Come up with a chore list to keep me on track when it comes to getting things done in a timely manner ;)
Basically, do the opposite of what I am doing now lol! I checked out a few books at the library that I hope will help me in my journey. Anybody with any advice, I would love to hear from you!

On another note, I had a really nice weekend with my husband and his family. It was quiet and peaceful :)
I really love what B brings out in me. He took me canoeing yesterday; never thought I would ever step foot in one! it was so much fun though. We went about 1 1/2 miles, but couldn't make it the for 3 or four miles of river because it was too hot and we weren't completely prepared. Now that we know the park rules we are going to take a picnic lunch with us next time (in a waterproof container) and hopefully we can take our camera next time so we can take some pretty pics :)  I did get a few pics from this weekend though. Hopefully I can figure out how to put some on here...

Yay! haha this is at the lake we went to with some family. I love this little island, makes me think of the beach :)

it was a lot of fun getting out in the sun after weeks of rain and clouds :)

I am really starting to enjoy our little town that we live in, and I love that we live down the street from a nice little park that I enjoy going to almost everyday.

this is a little spot I found, and the view I had while reading my bible the other day :)

This little guy was outside my front door, I called him Thumper :)

God is really showing me really sweet, beautiful things about our place that really helps me forget some of my homesickness. Its kind of cute how we even have a Friday night ritual of chowing down at the local Mexican restaurant

They serve the BEST enchiladas here.







We have also discovered the antique malls in town. One store had some amazing stuff that I would love to bring home. B and I drooled over this piece, isn't it beautiful? Too bad it was like six hundred dollars lol. Oh, well maybe someday :)

Well, that is a little update of my doings lately. Sorry for the rambling. I think I am going to pull an all nighter and get some things done. If you're up tonight, holla at a girl. I'm sure I'll be up scrubbing or organizing something LOL