Wednesday, October 30, 2013


I know that it has been a very long time since I have posted but there has been way too much going on. Many things happened at once. We bought a house, Bobby transferred jobs (twice), we trained for and ran a half marathon and various other emergencies happened. The number one thing that changed my life and left an impression on my heart though is when I got the call from my mom this summer telling me that my sweet little niece had been diagnosed with skin cancer at the age of 8 years old. Praise the Lord that surgery has been successful and as of right now the cancer seems to be gone. Once she has gone five years without it reoccurring she will be considered cancer free. Why do I bring this up?Because quite honestly I feel like I have been living life all wrong, all for myself. But I know now that God is good and He has blessed me with so much and I want my life to be poured out into others. Especially my little family! I want to be the best wife, mom, daughter, sister, and friend. There are many things that I want to do and time I am learning is precious. So I am at a crossroad. I'm not sure if keeping this blog is the best way for me to do any of these things. So, I am in serious prayer of this decision. If I choose not to continue with it I will keep the blog up more than likely so if you want to read previous posts you can. We will see. If over the course of the next several months I have absolutely no time to write or if I feel God is leading me away then I will let it go. Thank you for following me on our journey thus far, my heart goes out to all of you. Until I decide I hope that everyone has a blessed Thanksgiving and a wonderful Christmas! 


Thursday, May 16, 2013

We are making progress! :D

I am happy to say as I write this that there is a 95% chance that we will be closing on our home at the end of this month! So that means by May 31st we could be holding the keys to our first home! I am so excited! :D God has blessed us so much in this process, we have just seen His hand in all of it. I can't go into full details now because it would take too long but we had almost lost hope of finding a good house in our price range and this house just popped up on the market. And it also has 3/4 of an acre on it that we are super excited about. It's everything that we could have ever wanted in a starter home and more. I am so, so thankful it was brought to us. 

It has been a dream of ours from the time we married to have a little place like this in the country (it's just outside the city limits, about 20 minutes or so depending on traffic) so that we could garden and spend more time outside. I am excited about having a dishwasher for the first time since we've been married! and a working stove lol! 

Not only all of this but I will be close to my cousin, she literally lives 5 minutes up the road! Did I mention I was excited? lol :D 

It is going to be bittersweet leaving this house because it's my grandmother's home, and she is very ill now, and we had our first little baby here. So, lots of memories. Unfortunately it will more than likely have to be sold soon :-/ but I am ready to take the next step in our life. 

We are heading to my hometown tomorrow to spend the night with family and have a small party for S's first birthday. I can't believe that a year has gone by already! she's so big now! I want to be more diligent on recording memories with her so that's why I've been toying with my mommy blog lately too. I hope its perfect weather this weekend because its been a while since I've seen my family.

Hope everyone has a great Friday!

Sunday, May 12, 2013

More to come...

My site will be under construction for a little while as I work to bring more posts and related items to it. I pray more then anything that I can be of encouragement to others out there. Stay tuned :)

Monday, April 29, 2013

Hello, my name is unreliable blogger....

Has it really been over two months since I posted? *Sigh* it has. But I have a good excuse, I promise! 
After my DH was offered a job at his desired location he had to go through a month of orientation, and all of his licenses had to be renewed as well. So between his yearly refresher courses and new staff orientation I saw him for about 3 hours every night before bed for a month. And that was about it. And it sucked. After all of that we were able to recoup-orate for a couple of weeks before all of the other craziness ensued: DH bringing home a chocolate lab puppy he found (I told him yesterday she was way too perky for me and he laughed), a family medical crisis, our living situation becoming uncertain, colds all around, baby girl cutting TWO teeth and me having ALL of my wisdom teeth extracted. Awesome right? 
On a happy note: we might be closing on our first home! :D I am super excited about this. In fact, my eyes are bloodshot at the moment from my almost 2 hour Pinterest session looking at different home decor ideas lol. I should be sleeping now but night time is the only time that I get to myself, and I needed some me time. 

Wanna hear my funny story about my surgery experience? Well, I'm gonna tell you anyway ;) 

I've had severe jaw pain and tooth aches for the past almost six months. I finally decided to change dentists and he referred me to an oral surgeon. This is how my visit went:

<Oral Surgeon enters room>
OS: You need your wisdom teeth removed.
Me: Oh, really? All of them?
OS: Yes, I'm afraid all of them. Look at this.
<Pulls high tech device from ceiling that has my X-ray on a digital screen>   
OS: All of them are either partially impacted or fully impacted and this one is facing your back tooth horizontally.
Me: Oh. 

After a few more minutes of him explaining what would happen if I had them extracted I had to watch a short video that explained all of the risks of the surgery so they wouldn't be liable. If you knew me you would know that I should have never been forced to watch a five minute, cheesy video of how I could die during the procedure or be handicapped by it. A nurse came in after it was finished to walk me to the front and she apologized for the video saying, "We just try to scare you." Then I got to make my appointment and was informed of the amount my insurance would not cover for the procedure. I nearly passed out right there. So, leaving the office all I could see were $$ signs and then I crumbled into my hubby's arms when I returned home sobbing that "I wouldn't make it out alive." To which he patted my head and replied, "You'll be fine." Comforting huh? lol

Fast forward to the day of my surgery. I'm nervous as all get out. DH drove me there as it was required for him to be present the whole time in the building and to drive me home. The nurse who took care of me was amazing. She really helped me relax and did an excellent job starting my IV. We were chatting and I guess I wasn't falling asleep fast enough (I have a tendency to talk a lot when I get nervous so I wasn't really breathing in the gas.) because when the doctor came in he made a funny comment on our conversation and injected something into my IV line and I was OUT. And when I woke up it was truly the weirdest thing I have ever experienced. I couldn't focus, and it was like everything was in clips. I still have spots that are missing in the time period of me leaving the building because I was that out of it. So when I "woke up" I could tell I was in a wheel chair, and someone had put my coat on. I couldn't focus on anything until I heard my hubby call my name and tell me everything was alright and he was taking me home and then I remember seeing his hand take mine and then I was in the car and we were driving. He was talking to me but I couldn't focus on anything, I remember telling him that too lol. Then we were stopped (I didn't know at the time we were in the pharmacy drive-thru) and like an out of body experience I saw my hand open the door and I heard my hubby ask, "Do you feel sick?" I remember thinking why is he asking me that? because I literally couldn't feel anything in my body. Like I don't even know how my brain told my arm to move. Next thing I see is a flash of red and asphalt. He told me later that I threw up blood all over the pharmacy drive thru lane and since I was half hanging out of the car he had to get out of his side and come around, take his shirt and wipe my face while putting me back in the car. I'm sure it was an interesting sight for all the witnesses in the line behind us. After that we arrived home and he carried me inside (its pouring rain the whole time by the way) and I vaguely remember sitting on our couch, asking if it was over. DH told me later that he was instructed to change my gauze every fifteen minutes for an hour before I could lay down and I kept trying to pull the gauze out of my mouth lol. I guess I was one of those patients ;) After an hour he carried me to bed where I passed out and slept for four hours straight. He checked on me every ten minutes almost to make sure I was still breathing lol. When I woke up I was in control of my senses again. It was the weirdest thing I have ever experienced in my life. My hubby lamented that I had instructed him to not video me after the procedure, as I was "Pretty hilarious and looked like I was high on drugs." Which he should know, he deals with enough people like that I guess lol. The next day the right side of my face was swollen up like I had been in a street fight, and I could only open my mouth so far. So glad I don't have to do that again! But I'm really thankful my husband was there to take care of me. 

And now a week and a half later I am up at almost 2 in the morning writing when I should be sleeping. Sorry it's been so long but that's life sometimes I guess.

Until next time! Peace out,

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

A Journey to the Center of my Heart

Dear Friends,
It has been a while! Life, I'm afraid has the ability to sweep us away in a frenzy of activity, and burdensome responsibility. To say I have been overwhelmed lately would be an understatement. So much has gone on the past month that it seems hard for me to pick a place to begin. The first major change in our life: my Dear Husband has a brand new position at a major medical center here in our town. We have been waiting for this day for a very long time. To say that it is just a blessing would be like saying red velvet cake is just cake ;) 

This has been a true, life changing gift from God. Because my hubby will now have access to better training to receive more credentials to put under his belt. He has dreamed of being a Flight Medic for a long time and this is his chance to get a foot in the door. He is so excited about all of the opportunities he will have at this new job. AND the other night we were sitting in our living room and he tells me he might want to even go as far as start the process for PA school (Physician Assistant) or Nursing school to be a Nurse Practitioner. I about fell out on the floor. His enthusiasm is so encouraging to me.     

Our little girl has also been growing by leaps and bounds. In three months she will hit the one year mark. I can't believe how fast the time has gone by! She is so precious and gives me such joy every morning when I wake up and see her beautiful little smile. It melts my heart :) 

And then there's me. Plain ol' pile of a mess me ha! ;) 
What I mean is that I have fought a long battle the past two years and I have finally given up and let go and let Someone who knows me best to take control. I've rededicated my heart and I am here to shout with joy that I stand on God's promise that when I am at my weakest I am truly strong, for His Power in me is greater then what I face in this world. Hallelujah!  
Let me tell you friend, it was an ugly road. One that I pray I don't have to walk on again. I had so much hurt stuffed inside from years of past regrets and shame that I felt crushed under a black cloud of despair. The final result was a rampage of anger, strife, and discontent like this world has never seen. I hated the person that I had become. When I finally, reluctantly let God hold a mirror to my face I realized that if things didn't change then my life would be a shambles. That scared me out of my stupor real quick! Since then I have sought His mercy and renewal every morning. I pray I never come under those chains again! 

I know the obstacles in my life are still there but I am not fighting them anymore, my God has already won. I want to rest in the assurance of that victory.  He has revived our marriage, given me an even greater appreciation for my little girl, and He has shown me He can overcome depression and heartache. If we only let Him. I want my life to be a testament to that. And from now on friends I want you to see that change in me, because I can't deny it! ;) 



Sunday, January 27, 2013

Computer Virus how I hate you...

Well, people. I am still here and still alive but unfortunately my computer picked up a nasty virus (according to the tech I took it to the worst kind that you can get. Oh, joy!) I have not had a chance to update because the only other computer I currently have access to is almost non-functioning as well. It takes soooo long to do anything on it so I have not had the time to spend updating my blog on it. I'm going to see if I can type things first through a word processor before trying to update a post. Hope all is well and stay tuned as I get my bearings I'm trying to get the blog up an running again!