Thursday, May 26, 2011

I love Thursdays :)

Had a great day today. On top of his 24 hour shifts B has done some overtime and is currently in fire training. All this happens at the beginning of the week so Thursdays are the first days we get to really spend together. I guess they've become our Fridays :)

We are currently both working on about two hours of sleep apiece but I'm glad that we decided to do some fun things after my doctor's appointment. We made a pizza tonight and ate it with root beer while we watched the premier of So you think you can dance?
I love it when we make food and have a little TV date :)
So the doctor gave me some medicine that I hope will start working soon. I feel better than I did yesterday but I would love to go a full day and night without a sore throat.

This post is going to be a short post but I will write more later when I have the time :)
Hope y'all are enjoying the evening!

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Hiding Place

I have never felt so tested then in the past few weeks. B has started his 24 hour shift and I miss him. Its harder today though because I am sick and we are supposed to get some bad storms tonight. I don't mind thunder and such but I hate tornadoes. And considering the kind of spring we have been having my fear has only increased :(
B made me a doctor's appointment today. I have been feeling sick for over a week and I just want it to go away. I really wish my hubby was here so I could lay my head on his shoulder. I read a psalm today and I know that it was God speaking to me,

My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from Him.
He alone is my rock and my salvation;
He is my fortress, I will never be shaken...
Find rest, O my soul, in God alone;
my hope comes from Him.
He alone is my rock and my salvation;
He is my fortress, I will not be shaken.
Psalm 62:1-2, 5-6

I'm so glad I have a hiding place when I feel overwhelmed with anxiety; "Find rest, O my soul, in God alone".

Monday, May 23, 2011

New Beginnings :D

So the past two years have been ones of constant change for me. I met and married the love of my life, graduated college, and moved to a different state. My mom says that I am like my grandfather; I hate change. Don't get me wrong, I love being married and I love my life. The whole moving away from everyone I've known my whole life kinda has thrown me for a loop. Some things I have gotten used to; new house and city. Others, not so much. I guess what I'm trying to say is that starting something can be the scariest thing in the world.
But I'm finding that with all the challenges of being way out of my comfort zone is that I have become a more self-reliant person. And I like that. I believe the words of Jeremiah 29:11 "'For I know the plans I have for you', declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'" A while back I prayed that God would take me out of my comfort zone. At the time I felt pretty confident that He would appreciate the sentiment but not really act on it. Lesson I learned: be careful what you ask God for because He just might give it to you! haha
I feel like this is a time He is using to draw me close to Him and my husband. My biggest fear in life is to be alone. Well, I have never felt so alone then I have at times the past four months. And you know what? I haven't fallen apart. Sure, I have shed many a tear but altogether I am in one piece ;)
When you are most vulnerable I think God is especially close. I love the book of Psalms. One chapter in particular has stood out to me at this time,

O Lord, you have searched me and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts
from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O Lord.
You hem me in-behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
 too lofty for me to attain.
Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there...
even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
Psalm 139:1-8,9

I'm sure you've heard the saying, "What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger". Well, I take comfort in the fact that the things that bring me pain or sadness are all under the control of the One who has His hand on me. I'll admit, sometimes I doubt His plan making. But when I focus on His goodness and the blessings He pours out on my life all the time; new beginnings are both beautiful and exciting.
So, if you are struggling with a big life changing event; hang in there! it will get easier, and whatever He is doing will turn out beautifully!